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Cool kids

Love how blogger updates new layout templates that makes your blog looks hipster even though its not. I thought my course would look hipster too Yep that was what I had in mind when I was choosing my course, one of the most important choices in life, at least what many Asian parents and aunty uncles would say. I wanted something different than all other graduating classmates who were all taking medicine, medicine and medicine. I was torn apart on whether to follow the typical kiasu spirit of mine to choose a stable, high earning job like many were or to do something different. I told myself I would not be the former so I was deciding between clinical psych or speech pathology. Yet at times, when I see people wearing that sparkly white coat, saying how their clinical experiences were, along with mum teasing about how easy the requirements were for the courses I have chosen, I would think if I should aim higher or not 'waste' my results. But I shook off all the doubts and wen
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Mehhh, I'll have plenty of time to do that

How is it that you are so busy with something that the whole world moves without you? What an irony that I want to 'slow my footsteps' but find myself unable to catch up when I'm done. Okay enough with the aimless thoughts. Well firstly YAY Alevels is over! Notice I did not exaggerate my sentence because I can't believe its over. It just went so fast that it flew past me and now its gone. I don't feel super liberated or very free-from-cage  mainly because I think I did not work hard as what was deserved, basically I did not give my best to my final exams, (in fact really unprepared :/) But I'm not very into the regretful mood either (most probably would cry only when I get my result). Would just sum my condition now as very glad that I am able to rest :) When I was in my study break, I craved to do everything, when I said everything, it really meant EVERYTHINGGG. I wanted to watch every single movie, bake every single recipe that I saw in facebook, meet up
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The Journey

Such a waste of time I would say, sitting in the train or worst cramming like sardines in the lrt for 30 minutes just wasn't what I would look forward to. The journey was one of biggest downside of going to mckl such faraway land where it takes almost an hour to reach there. I started getting used to the public transport. I know which coach to go to and has the least people. I know which end is the stairs the nearest to the train. I know which hour will be the craziest sardine pack and I know which station I can get a seat. Like this hour, after 6'30 in the morning you'll get a least probability to have a seat. Seeing the usual queue I went to wait at the reverse direction to the other terminal of the lrt. The lrt came empty as usual and I picked the last seat and made myself comfortable. It was a longer ride after all. Daydreamed for a moment before I took out my book and started reading. As the train arrive at the terminal I was waiting for the people of Gombak to come i
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Blurred

Even looking at my post 9 months ago seems like I was still fifteen haha, it just felt like it was before everything. I know I will feel that all the time because I'm changing, changing to a better me I hope, and I'm glad of the change. It was tough nevertheless, this 9 months was fast but tough. Dare not say real tough because I'm pretty sure I need to leave that for some other things coming on in the future. Well it kind of scares me. The future. When I see how stressful and tough life gets, I'm afraid of the future. It won't get any better, would it? It would just get tougher and tougher leaving you gasping for air all the time. But I guess this is what life is meant to be, you just have to move forward and there will be no turning back. Even if there seems to be nothing in front, even if you do not know where the next step is, even if you don't know if you can take the next step. But this, showed me the frailty of mankind, our own strength is so limited, we
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A new step

I failed. Failed miserably. Haha I planned to write this post way earlier after RBS but I failed. Now I've even started college. :O There's too much to write. So much that I don't even know where to start. Phew, RBS. It has been enriching and fulfilling. I wouldn't say it was a fun one really cos I can't really remember myself being really happy instead I find myself being sad and lonely lots of time actually. But yeah though all the down times, I've learned so much. So much about God and so much about myself, and about others too. I learn to see myself less and to look at others more. To ask God to help me see others with love, to help me look at his world how he would see them and break my heart of what breaks His. Also opened up my eyes through many things, and found lots of friendships to treasure :) It was thus a great experience Andddddd...college. Its only 2 days of college and i feel so stressed out already. There's so much to do by yourself, t
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Fare thee well, my 2014!

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It's the time of the year!!!! for the last bits of selfies and status updates before 2015 kicks in and here am I writing the last post for the year again haha. So a little recap of 2014. Year of kiasunesss and books and books. Year of wefiess and ultimate vainness . Year of new experiences. Year of parting and saying goodbye. Year of family gatherings and holidays! So it's quite a year I guess. And I'm glad it was. I'm glad of how it is and how every part of it has made me, me today. Am thankful for people I met, people I love, people who are kind to me and people who are not. Thank God that he has been with me all the times and I'll know he will still be by my side for years to come. Now to step into the new year which is full of new things and endless possibilities, here's to a great year of 2015 ahead!
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Writing again

Was looking through the old posts I wrote few years ago and I was laughing and feeling embarrased the same time. Saw the old me through the posts and I guess that's what puberty did to me lol. But I also saw how I've lost the interest to write so often again I guess its half because of the trends of time where writing blogs isn't popular anymore but I still enjoying reading blogs though. I guess few years back when blogspots was still the trend, I wrote because to make myself popular err I guess just among my friends and it was a major failure obviously because it feels more like I'm 'tweeting' random stuffss like in social networks. Those times I cared about views and comments but now I kinda feel more comfortable with less people reading my blog cos anyone can read it and anyone can judge. I feel more like writing to myself than to people haha And the other half might be just because there's too much things on the internet that's seems more exciting
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