Doodling

It's the time of the year!!!! for the last bits of selfies and status updates before 2015 kicks in and here am I writing the last post for the year again haha. So a little recap of 2014. Year of kiasunesss and books and books. Year of wefiess and ultimate vainness . Year of new experiences. Year of parting and saying goodbye. Year of family gatherings and holidays! So it's quite a year I guess. And I'm glad it was. I'm glad of how it is and how every part of it has made me, me today. Am thankful for people I met, people I love, people who are kind to me and people who are not. Thank God that he has been with me all the times and I'll know he will still be by my side for years to come. Now to step into the new year which is full of new things and endless possibilities, here's to a great year of 2015 ahead!

Was looking through the old posts I wrote few years ago and I was laughing and feeling embarrased the same time. Saw the old me through the posts and I guess that's what puberty did to me lol. But I also saw how I've lost the interest to write so often again I guess its half because of the trends of time where writing blogs isn't popular anymore but I still enjoying reading blogs though. I guess few years back when blogspots was still the trend, I wrote because to make myself popular err I guess just among my friends and it was a major failure obviously because it feels more like I'm 'tweeting' random stuffss like in social networks. Those times I cared about views and comments but now I kinda feel more comfortable with less people reading my blog cos anyone can read it and anyone can judge. I feel more like writing to myself than to people haha And the other half might be just because there's too much things on the internet that's seems more exciting

I guess as SPM ends this gives me no more excuse to not update my blog anymore haha have been writing drafts on and off but never complete them, now its too late :/ Finishing the last paper marks the end of school life, which also means I'm no longer a school student anymore. Thinking of it, I feel old lol but yeah, not being in school means not a kid which kinda makes me feel excited but a little worried at the same time. I guess its because I enjoyed being young and with all the privileges I could get. Finishing school life also means future. Education doesn't get planned up for you anymore. I still can't decide what am I interested in and what I want to be. Even it's only the first day after SPM I get a little stressed up looking at college universities and  further studies  adverts. Though I still have some time but yeah I'm kinda worried I won't make my best decision. Leaving school also means leaving my friends. I'm not a 'love my friends ti