Doodling

Even looking at my post 9 months ago seems like I was still fifteen haha, it just felt like it was before everything. I know I will feel that all the time because I'm changing, changing to a better me I hope, and I'm glad of the change. It was tough nevertheless, this 9 months was fast but tough. Dare not say real tough because I'm pretty sure I need to leave that for some other things coming on in the future. Well it kind of scares me. The future. When I see how stressful and tough life gets, I'm afraid of the future. It won't get any better, would it? It would just get tougher and tougher leaving you gasping for air all the time. But I guess this is what life is meant to be, you just have to move forward and there will be no turning back. Even if there seems to be nothing in front, even if you do not know where the next step is, even if you don't know if you can take the next step. But this, showed me the frailty of mankind, our own strength is so limited, we

I failed. Failed miserably. Haha I planned to write this post way earlier after RBS but I failed. Now I've even started college. :O There's too much to write. So much that I don't even know where to start. Phew, RBS. It has been enriching and fulfilling. I wouldn't say it was a fun one really cos I can't really remember myself being really happy instead I find myself being sad and lonely lots of time actually. But yeah though all the down times, I've learned so much. So much about God and so much about myself, and about others too. I learn to see myself less and to look at others more. To ask God to help me see others with love, to help me look at his world how he would see them and break my heart of what breaks His. Also opened up my eyes through many things, and found lots of friendships to treasure :) It was thus a great experience Andddddd...college. Its only 2 days of college and i feel so stressed out already. There's so much to do by yourself, t